Tatsuya tidak langsung menjawab. De

Tatsuya tidak langsung menjawab. Dengan suara berat akhirnya ia menjawab, “Aku... tidak akan kembali lagi ke Paris.”
Tidak akan kembali lagi.... Tidak akan kembali lagi....
Tara berusaha mengendalikan napasnya yang terputus-putus. Bernapaslah dengan normal.... Tarik... Keluarkan... Tarik... Keluarkan...
“Tara-chan.”
Dengan enggan Tara menoleh. Tatsuya menatap langsung ke matanya, lalu tersenyum. Senyum yang selalu disukai Tara. Tapi sayangnya Tara tidak bisa membalas senyumannya. hatinya terlalu hancur untuk tersenyum.
“Aku sangat senang bisa mengenalmu,” kata Tatsuya. Ia mengucapkan setiap kata dengan pelan, jelas dan tegas. “Terima kasih.”
Kali ini Tara tidak mampu mengalihkan tatapannya dari mata Tatsuya.
Tatsuya berdiri, dan Tara mengikutinya. Mereka berdiri berhadapan dan berpandangan.
Setelah bimbang sesaat, Tatsuya mengulurkan tangan kanannya yang tidak berbebat. Tara menatap tangan yang terjulur itu, lalu kembali menatap mata Tatsuya. Dengan agak gemetar ia menyambut uluran tangan Tatsuya.
Kehangatan genggaman tangan Tatsuya mengalir ke tubuh Tara, mengisi hati dan jiwanya, juga semakin membuat hatinya serasa diremas-remas. Apakah ini terakhir kalinya ia bisa merasakan Tatsuya menggenggam tangannya?
Lalu tiba-tiba Tatsuya menarik tangan Tara dengan pelan namun yakin, menarik Tara mendekatinya, menarik Tara ke dalam pelukannya.
Tara terpana, tercengang, tapi sama sekali tidak menghindar atau menolak. Ia membiarkan Tatsuya melingkarkan sebelah lengannya di sekeliling tubuhnya. Ia membiarkan Tatsuya
memeluknya dengan erat, sama seperti ketika laki-laki itu memeluknya di taman rumah sakit. Ia membiarkan dirinya tenggelam dalam kehangatan Tatsuya. Saat itu, ia berharap waktu bisa berhenti. Ia rela memberikan apa saja asalkan waktu berhenti saat itu.
“Aku tidak pernah menyesal mengenalmu,” gumam Tatsuya sekali lagi. “Percayalah padaku.”
Tara menelan ludah dan air matanya sudah nyaris jatuh. Ia mengangguk. Ia percaya.
Tatsuya melonggarkan pelukannya dan mundur selangkah supaya bisa menatap mata Tara. “Berjanjilah padaku kau akan baik-baik saja,” katanya.
Tara menggeleng. Ia tidak sanggup berjanji. Ia tahu ini kata-kata perpisahan. Ia belum siap. Jangan pergi, pintanya dalam hati.
“Tara-chan,” panggil Tatsuya. “Berjanjilah.”
Tara menggigit bibirnya. Wajah Tatsuya terlihat buram di matanya karena terhalang air mata. Akhirnya ia mengangguk.
Jangan pergi....
Tatsuya tersenyum. Ia mengangkat tangannya dan membelai kepala Tara. Betapa Tara menyukai sentuhan Tatsuya itu. Tapi ia juga menyadari itu untuk yang terakhir kalinya.
“Terima kasih,” gumam Tatsuya. Ia menarik kembali tangannya dan memasukkannya ke saku jas. “Selamat tinggal, Tara-chan.”
Jangan pergi... jangan pergi....
Tara ingin meneriakkan kata-kata itu, memohon Tatsuya untuk tidak meninggalkannya, tapi suaranya tidak bisa keluar. Ia hanya bisa memohon dalam hati sementara Tatsuya membalikkan tubuh dan berjalan pergi.
Kumohon... jangan pergi....
Isakan pertama melompatkeluar dari tenggorokannya dan ia harus menutup mulut dengan tangan supaya Tatsuya tidak mendengarnya. Tetapi melihat punggung Tatsuya yang semakin jauh, Tara sama sekali tidak bisa mengendalikan tangisnya. Isakannya bertambah keras dan ia harus membekap mulut dengan kedua tangan, namun itu juga tidak membantu.
* * *
Tatsuya tahu Tara menangis. Ketika ia membalikkan tubuh dan berjalan pergi, ia mendengar isakan gadis itu. Butuh tekad kuat dan segenap kendali dirinya untuk tidak berbalik dan kembali memeluk Tara. Ia tahu bila ia berbalik dan melihat Tara lagi, ia tidak akan sanggup meninggalkan gadis itu.
Ia tahu keputusannya ini adalah yang terbaik. Satu-satunya yang bisa dilakukan. Tara tidak bertanya kapan ia akan pulang ke Jepang. Ia yakin Tara tidak berani bertanya. Juga tidak berani mendengar jawabannya. Tatsuya sendiri tidak menawarkan diri untuk memberitahu Tara, karena ia tidak sanggup.
Hatinya sakit sekali ketika memeluk Tara, tapi jauh lebih sakit ketika ia melepaskan pelukannya. Tidak apa-apa... Saat ia meninggalkan Paris, hatinya tidak akan sakit lagi. Ia yakin itu. Karena pada saat itu, hatinya juga akan mati. Tidak akan merasakan apa-apa lagi.

نتایج (انگلیسی) 1:

Tatsuya doesn't answer immediately. With the deep voice he replied, "I'm ... not going back again to Paris."Will not go back again .... Will not go back again ....Tara tried to control her breathing that is disjointed. Breathe normally ... Pull the ... Remove the ... Pull the ... Remove the ..."Tara-chan."Tara reluctantly turned. Tatsuya stared directly into his eyes, and smiled. The smile that always frowned upon Tara. But unfortunately cannot reply to Tara senyumannya. his heart was too devastated to smile."I'm so glad I could've known," said Tatsuya. He pronounces each word slowly, clearly and unequivocally. "Thank you."This time, Tara could not afford to turn their gaze from the eye of Tatsuya.Tatsuya stands, and Tara follow suit. They stand face to face and hold.After wavering for a moment, stretched out his right hand, Tatsuya which is not berbebat. Tara stares at the hand that it's extendable, and then looked back at the eyes of Tatsuya. With a somewhat shaky, he welcomed a helping hand Tatsuya.The warmth of the hand grips Tatsuya flows into the body of Tara, fills my heart and soul, are also increasingly making his heart seemed to knead. Is this the last time he could feel his hands grasping Tatsuya?Then suddenly the hand pull Tara up with Tatsuya slowly but sure, pull Tara Tara, pulling him into her arms.Tara stunned, dumbfounded, but absolutely not shy away or refused. She let her arms next to the loop Tatsuya around her body. He let Tatsuyahold her tight, just as when the male hug him at children's Hospital. He let himself sink into the warmth of Tatsuya. Then, he hoped time could stop. He willingly give anything as long as the time stop time."I never regret've known," Tatsuya gumam once again. "Trust me."Tara swallowed and his tears are already dangerously close to falling. He nodded. He believes.Tatsuya loosen her arms and backward step to be staring eyes of Tara. "Berjanjilah me you will be fine," he said.Tara shook his head. He was not able to promise. He knew this parting words. He was not yet ready. Don't go, pintanya in the liver."Tara-chan," call Tatsuya. "Berjanjilah."Tara biting his lips. The face looks opaque Tatsuya in his eyes because of the obstructed tear. Finally he nodded.Do not go ....Tatsuya smile. He raised his hand and caressed the head of Tara. How Tara liked touch Tatsuya it. But he also realized it was for the last time."Thank you," Tatsuya gumam. He pulled back his hand and putting it into the pocket of a jacket. "Goodbye, Tara-chan."Don't go ... Please don't go ....Tara wanted to shout out the word that, pleading not to be Tatsuya leave him, but his voice was unable to get out. He could only plead in the liver while Tatsuya reverse body and walk away.Kumohon ... do not go ....Isakan first melompatkeluar from his throat and he had to close the mouth with the hands so that Tatsuya does not hear it. But looking back, the farther the Tatsuya Tara absolutely can't control her crying. Isakannya grow hard and he had to membekap the mouth with both hands, but it also does not help.* * *Tatsuya know Tara cried. When he reversed the body and walk away, he heard a isakan girl. It took strong determination, and all control of himself to not turn around and go back to hug Tara. She knew when she turns around and sees Tara again, he will not be able to leave that girl.He knew this was the best decision. The only thing that can be done. Tara is not asking when he will return to Japan. He was sure Tara didn't dare to ask. Also do not dare to hear the answer. Tatsuya himself was not volunteered to tell Tara, because he wasn't able to.Her heart aches once when hugged Tara, but far more pain when he let go of her arms. It's okay ... As he left Paris, his heart will not ache anymore. He was sure of it. Because at that time, his heart will also die. Will not feel anything anymore.

نتایج (انگلیسی) 2:

Tatsuya did not answer immediately. With a deep voice he finally replied, "I'm ... not going back to Paris."
Not going back again .... Not going back again ....
Tara tried to control his breathing is intermittent. Breathe normally .... Pull ... Pull ... Remove ... Remove ...
"Tara-chan."
Reluctantly Tara turned. Tatsuya looked straight into her eyes and smiled. The smile that always favored Tara. But unfortunately Tara could not smile back. his heart was too devastated to smile.
"I'm very pleased to know you," said Tatsuya. He pronouncing each word slowly, clearly and unequivocally. "Thank you."
This time Tara was not able to take her eyes from the eyes Tatsuya.
Tatsuya stood up, and Tara follow. They stood and exchanged glances.
After vacillating for a moment, Tatsuya his right hand which is not padded. Tara looked at the outstretched hand, then back at Tatsuya's eyes. With a little shaky he welcomed the helping hands of Tatsuya.
The warmth of the hand grip to flow into the body Tatsuya Tara, filling his heart and soul, is also increasingly making her heart knead. Is this the last time he could feel Tatsuya hold his hand?
And then suddenly pulled his hand Tatsuya Tara slowly but sure, attract approached Tara, Tara pull into his arms.
Tara stunned, stunned, but did not evade or resist. He let Tatsuya put his arm around her. He let Tatsuya
hugged her tightly, just like when a man embraced her in the hospital's garden. He let himself sink into the warmth of Tatsuya. At that time, he wished time could stop. He'd give anything as long as the time stopped at that time.
"I have never regretted know you," murmured Tatsuya again. "Trust me."
Tara swallowed and the tears had almost fallen. He nodded. He believes.
Tatsuya loosened his arms and took a step back in order to look into the eyes of Tara. "Promise me you'll be fine," he said.
Tara shook her head. He could not promise. He knows it's parting words. He was not ready. Do not go, she begged silently.
"Tara-chan," Tatsuya call. "Promise."
Tara bit her lip. Tatsuya's face looks blurry in his eyes because of blocked tear. Finally he nodded.
Do not go ....
Tatsuya smiled. He raised his hand and stroked the head of Tara. How Tara liked Tatsuya touch it. But he also realized it was for the last time.
"Thank you," murmured Tatsuya. He pulled back his hand and put it into his coat pocket. "Goodbye, Tara-chan."
Do not go ... do not go ....
Tara wanted to shout the words, Tatsuya begged not to leave, but her voice could not get out. He could only plead in the liver while Tatsuya turned and walked away.
Please ... do not go ....
sob melompatkeluar first of his throat and he had covered her mouth so Tatsuya did not hear it. But look farther back Tatsuya, Tara simply could not control his tears. Sobs grew louder and he must hand over his mouth with both hands, but it also did not help.
* * *
Tatsuya knew Tara was crying. When he turned and walked away, she heard the sobs of the girl. It takes determination and all her self-control not to turn around and go back hug Tara. He knew if he turned around and saw Tara again, he would not be able to leave the girl.
He knew this was the best decision. The only thing that could be done. Tara did not ask when he will return to Japan. He is convinced Tara did not dare ask. Also do not dare answer. Tatsuya itself did not offer to tell Tara, because he could not.
His heart hurts when hugged Tara, but much more painful when he let go of his arms. It's okay ... When he left Paris, his heart will not hurt anymore. He was sure of it. Because at that moment, his heart will die. Will not feel anything anymore.