Dokter Delcour mengangkat bahu. “la

Dokter Delcour mengangkat bahu. “lalu? Kau keberatan karena kau dulu sempat punya hubungan dengan Sanae? Bagaimanapun itu hanya hubungan singkat saat liburan.”
Tara tidak berani bernapas. Ayahnya memang mengenal almarhum ibu Tatsuya. Dan mereka berdua sempat punya hubungan?
Karena yang ditanya tidak menjawab, Dokter Delcour melanjutkan, “Astaga! Teman, yang benar saja! Kejadian itu sudah bertahun-tahun yang lalu. Walaupun aku hanya tahu wanita itu dari cerita-ceritamu, tapi aku yakin dia tidak keberatan putrimu berhubungan dengan putranya.”
Tara mendengar ayahnya tertawa sumbang. Tawa putus asa yang dipaksakan. Nyaris mirip dengusan.
“Aku juga tidak akan keberatan dengan hubungan mereka,” sahut ayahnya pelan, namun jelas, “kalau Tatsuya bukan anakku juga.”
Apa?!
Tara tercengang. Jantungnya serasa berhenti berdebar. Napasnya tercekat. Ia tidak percaya pada pendengarannya. Apa yang dikatakan ayahnya tadi?
Dokter Delcour juga terperanjat. “Apa katamu?”
Ayah Tara menjelaskan dengan nada pasrah. “Dia membawa surat yang ditulis ibunya sebelum meninggal. Dia memintaku membacanya. Di dalam surat itu Sanae menulis dengan jelas sekali bahwa aku adalah ayah kandung Tatsuya. Selama ini aku sama sekali tidak tahu Sanae ternyata hamil. Dia tidak memberitahuku. Kami kehilangan kontak begitu saja setelah aku meninggalkan Jepang.”
Dokter Delcour tidak bisa berkata-kata.
“Tatsuya datang karena ingin menemuiku,” lanjut ayah Tara dengan nada datar yang sama, seakan sedang melamun. “Dia sama sekali tidak meminta apa pun dariku. Ia bahkan tidak butuh pengakuanku karena katanya dia sudah punya ayah yang mengasihi dan membesarkannya selama ini. Katanya dia hanya ingin bertemu denganku sekali saja. Hanya itu.
“Tentu saja aku terguncang mendengar berita itu, aku bisa menerimanya. Aku bersedia memikul tanggung jawab atas keadaan ini. Semuanya bisa diatasi... sampai aku tahu Victoria ternyata sudah mengenal Tatsuya. Dan hubungan mereka membuatku cemas.”
“Kau yakin dia anak kandungmu?” tanya Dokter Delcour hati-hati. Pertanyaan yang wajar mengingat situasi yang mereka hadapi. Pertanyaan yang juga mengandung harapan.
Ayah Tara mengangguk lemah. “Begitu tahu Victoria putriku, Tatsuya sendiri yang meminta tes DNA. Aku bisa merasakan rasa frustrasinya, Laurent. Dan begitu menerima hasil tesnya, aku tahu harapannya hancur. Dia memang putraku.”
Tara menyadari suara ayahnya bergetar ketika berkata, “Semua ini terjadi karena salahku. Kau juga tahu, bukan? Aku telah menghancurkan putraku. Dan kalau Victoria tahu tentang ini, dia juga akan hancur. Laurent, aku menghancurkan kedua anakku. Darah dagingku sendiri.”
Kaki Tara mendadak lemas. Ia memutar tubuh dan harus bersandar di tembok supaya tidak jatuh. Apa yang dikatakan ayahnya tadi...? Putranya...? Tatsuya?
Ia merasa pusing, seakan seluruh darah di tubuhnya terserap keluar. Tangannya dingin dan selain itu ia tidak bisa merasakan apa pun. Bahunya tegang. Dadanya berat sekali. Paru-parunya tidak mau berfungsi. Ia tidak bisa bernapas.
Kepalanya serasa berkabut. Tidak bisa berpikir apa pun.
Pandangannya buram. Tidak bisa melihat apa pun.
Telinganya berdenging. Tidak bisa mendengar apa pun.
Ia berbalik dengan pelan, berjalan menjauhi pintu dengan linglung. Baru berjalan beberapa langkah, kakinya terlalu lemas untuk menopang tubuhnya dan ia jatuh terduduk di lantai. Kepalanya disandarkan ke dinding. Matanya menatap kosong.
Putra ayahnya... Tatsuya... Putra ayahnya... Putra ayahnya...
Kata-kata itu terus berputar-putar di kepalanya. Kemudian banyak hal yang bermunculan dalam ingatannya.
Tatsuya pernah bercerita ia mencari cinta pertama ibunya, sekaligus ayah kandungnya....
Aku mencari cinta pertama ibuku....
Kekagetan Tatsuya dan ayahnya ketika mereka bertemu di La Vue pada malam ulang tahun Élise....
Aku pernah mendengar ayahmu adalah... eh, Jean-Daniel Lemercier yang punya banyak restoran di Prancis....
Tatsuya yang mulai bersikap aneh dan menjaga jarak....
Kalau memang boleh, aku tidak berniat melepaskan diri....
Ayahnya yang melarangnya berhubungan dengan Tatsuya....
Jangan menyukainya.... Jangan. Demi Tuhan! Jangan menyukainya seperti itu....
Tiba-tiba saja Tara tahu kenapa sejak pertama kali bertemu Tatsuya, ia merasa laki-laki itu sepertinya tidak asing. Dulu ia tidak tahu kenapa, tetapi sekarang semuanya mendadak jelas.
Tatsuya mengingatkan Tara pada ayahnya!
Caranya berjalan, caranya tersenyum, caranya berbicara. Dan matanya. Astaga! Mata itu. Mata Tatsuya sama dengan mata Jean-Daniel Dupont. Sama dengan mata Tara sendiri. Mereka bertiga memiliki mata berwarna abu-abu.
Ternyata bukan lensa kontak... Tatsuya tidak memakai lensa kontak. Tara baru menyadari Tatsuya tidak pernah berkata ia memakai lensa kontak. Tara sendiri yang beranggapan begitu.
Kenapa baru sekarang ia menyadarinya?
Kenapa harus Tatsuya?
Tara menekan telapak tangannya ke dada. Sakit...

نتایج (انگلیسی) 1:

Delcour doctor shrugged. "then? You mind since you first briefly had a relationship with Sanae? However it was only a short relationship during the holidays. "Tara did not dare to breathe. His father is indeed to know the deceased mother of Tatsuya. And they both had had a relationship?Because the Doctor did not reply, asked Delcour continued, "Oh my gosh! Friends, that's true! It's been many years ago. Although I only knew the woman from cerita-ceritamu, but I'm sure he wouldn't mind your daughter got in touch with her son. "Tara hears his father laughed off pitch. Desperation forced laughter. Almost similar to grunts."I also will not object to their relationship," his father said quietly, but clearly, "if my son isn't too. Tatsuya"What?!Tara was taken aback. His heart seemed to stop beating. Her breathing tercekat. He does not believe in his hearing. What his father had said?Doctor Delcour also aghast. "What did you say?"Tara's father explains with a tone of resignation. "He brings a letter written before his mother died. He asked me to read it. In the letter it was Sanae wrote clearly that I was the biological father of Tatsuya. During this I completely do not know Sanae turned out to be pregnant. He didn't tell me. We lost contact with it after I leave Japan. "Doctors can't speak Delcour."Tatsuya is because some want to come because," continued the father of Tara with the same monotone, as if were dreamy. "He is absolutely not asking anything from me. She didn't even need pengakuanku because he said he already had a father who loves and raised him. He said he just wanted to meet me just once. That's it."Of course I was shocked to hear the news, I could accept it. I'm willing to assume responsibility for this situation. All of them can be overcome ... until I know Victoria is apparently already acquainted with Tatsuya. And their relationship makes me anxious. ""Are you sure he is the son of kandungmu?" asked Doctor Delcour carefully. A reasonable question given the situation they face. The question which also contains expectations.Father of Tara nodded weakly. "So my daughter Victoria, Tatsuya know themselves who asked for DNA testing. I can feel a sense of due, Laurent. And so receive the test results, I know his expectations shattered. She did my son. "Tara realizes his father's voice shakes when said, "all this happened because of my fault. Did you also know, isn't it? I have destroyed my son. And if Victoria knew about this, he will also be destroyed. Laurent, I'm destroying my son's second. The blood of my flesh; "Tara feet suddenly buckled. He twisted his body and had to lean on the wall so as not to fall. What his father had been...? His son ...? Tatsuya?He felt dizzy, as if whole blood in his body absorbed out. His hands were cold and he can't feel anything. His shoulders tense. Heavy chest once. His lungs are unwilling to work. He could not breathe.His head seemed to Misty. Can't think of anything.His vision was blurry. Could not see anything.His ears ringing. Can't hear anything.He turned slowly, walking away from the door with daze. Recently walked a few steps, his feet are too limp to shore up his body and he falls sitting on the floor. His head was resting against the wall. His eyes staring blankly.The son of his father ... Tatsuya ... The son of his father ... The son of his father ...The words were constantly swirling in her head. Then lots of things popping up in her memory.Tatsuya never told me he was looking for his mother's first love, and her biological father ....I'm looking for my mother's first love. ...The shock Tatsuya and his father when they meet in La Vue on the eve of the anniversary of Élise. ...I've heard your dad is. .. uh, Jean-Daniel Lemercier have many restaurants in France ....Tatsuya who start being odd and keep your distance. ...If I may, I do not intend to escape ...His father forbade him to connect with Tatsuya. ...Don't like it. ... Don't. For God's Sake! Do not like it as it is. ...Suddenly Tara just know why since it first met Tatsuya, he felt the man's does not seem foreign. First he didn't know why, but now everything is suddenly obvious.Tatsuya reminded Tara on her father!Here's how to walk, how to talk, how to smile. And his eyes. Jeez! The eyes of it. Same with Tatsuya eye Jean-Daniel Dupont. Same with the eyes of Tara itself. The three of them have grey eyes.It turns out that instead of contact lenses ... Tatsuya does not wear contact lenses. Tara newly realized Tatsuya never said he wears contact lenses. Tara self assumed so.Why only now he noticed?Why should Tatsuya?Tara pressed the Palm of his hand to his chest. Sick ...

نتایج (انگلیسی) 2:

Delcour doctor shrugged. "then? You mind because you once had had a relationship with Sanae? However it was only a brief relationship while on vacation. "
She did not dare to breathe. His father does know deceased mother Tatsuya. And they both had had a relationship?
Because who asked not answer, Doctor Delcour continued, "Gosh! Friends, right! The incident was already many years ago. Although I only knew the woman of your stories, but I'm sure he would not mind your daughter related to her son, "
Tara heard him laugh discordant. Desperate forced laughter. Almost like a grunt.
"I will not object to their relationship," her father said softly but clearly, "if Tatsuya not my son, too."
What ?!
Tara dumbfounded. Her heart stopped pounding. Her breath caught. He did not believe in his hearing. What did his father say that?
Doctor Delcour also aghast. "What did you say?"
Dad Tara explained in a resigned voice. "He brought a letter written by her mother before she died. He asked me to read it. In the letter Sanae write very clearly that I was the real father Tatsuya. During this time I had no idea Sanae turned out to be pregnant. He did not tell me. We lost contact just after I left Japan. "
The doctor Delcour can not speak.
" Tatsuya came because I wanted to see me, "said Tara's father with the same monotone, as if he were lost in thought. "He did not ask anything from me. It does not even need a confession because he said he already had a father who loved and raised him over the years. He said he just wanted to see me once. Just that.
"Of course I was shocked to hear the news, I could accept it. I'm willing to assume responsibility for this situation. Everything can be solved ... until I know Victoria was already familiar with Tatsuya. And their relationship worries me. "
" Are you sure he own son? "Asked Doctor Delcour carefully. Questions were reasonable given the situation they face. Questions also contains hope.
Dad Tara nodded weakly. "Once you know your daughter Victoria, Tatsuya themselves demand a DNA test. I could feel her frustration, Laurent. And so received the test results, I knew his hopes were destroyed. He's my son. "
Tara realizes her father's voice quivered when he said," All of this happened because of my fault. You know, do not you? I have destroyed my son. And if Victoria knew about this, he will also be destroyed. Laurent, I ruined my children. Own flesh and blood. "
Walking Tara suddenly limp. He spun and had to lean against the wall so as not to fall. What is said his father was ...? His son ...? Tatsuya?
He felt dizzy, as if all the blood in her body absorbed out. His hands were cold and apart from that he could not feel anything. His shoulders were tense. His chest was so heavy. His lungs would not work. He could not breathe.
His head felt foggy. Could not think of anything.
His vision blurred. Could not see anything.
His ears were ringing. Could not hear anything.
He turned slowly, walking away from the door in a daze. Only a few steps, his legs are too weak to sustain her and she sat down on the floor. His head was propped against the wall. His eyes stared blankly.
Men Tatsuya ... father ... father ... son of his father's son ...
The words kept circling in his head. Then a lot of things that have sprung up in his memory.
Tatsuya never told me she was looking for her mother's first love, while her biological father ....
I'm looking for my mother's first love ....
The shock Tatsuya and his father when they meet in La Vue on the eve of anniversary Elise .. ..
I've heard your father is ... eh, Jean-Daniel Lemercier which has a lot of restaurants in France ....
Tatsuya began acting strange and distant ....
If it is allowed, I do not intend to escape ... .
Her father, who forbade associated with Tatsuya ....
Do not like it .... do. For God's sake! Do not like it like that ....
Suddenly Tara know why since I met Tatsuya, he felt the man did not seem foreign. First he did not know why, but now everything was suddenly clear.
Tatsuya Tara reminded him of his father!
How walked, the way he smiled, the way he speaks. And his eyes. Gosh! Those eyes. Tatsuya same eyes with eye Jean-Daniel Dupont. Tara similar to our own. The three of them had gray eyes.
It was not a contact lens ... Tatsuya not wear contact lenses. Tara realized Tatsuya never said he was wearing contact lenses. Tara himself think so.
Why only now is he aware of it?
Why should Tatsuya?
Tara pressing his palm to his chest. Sick...