“Kau bisa merasakan debar jantungku

“Kau bisa merasakan debar jantungku?” tanya Tatsuya pelan. Matanya menatap ke dalam mata Tara.
Telapak tangannya menempel di dada Tatsuya dan tangannya gemetar dalam genggaman Tatsuya. Ia bisa merasakan debar jantung laki-laki itu. Berdebar kencang di bawah telapak tangannya.
“Kau merasakan jantungku berdebar keras? Cepat?”
Suara Tatsuya seakan menghipnotisnya. Tara tidak bisa mengalihkan tatapannya dari mata Tatsuya. Ia juga tidak bisa menjawab.
“Ini karena dirimu.”
Tara menahan napas. Ia bisa merasakan debar jantung Tatsuya, tetapi tidak bisa merasakan debar jantungnya sendiri.
Tatsuya tersenyum. “Ini karena aku telah berlari engelilingi Paris demi mencarimu. Kau percaya sekarang?”
Laki-laki itu begitu manis. Begitu baik. Hati Tara sakit sekali karena perasaan yang dirasakannya terhadap Tatsuya. Air mata mulai membasahi pipinya.
“Jangan menangis,” gumam Tatsuya smabil menghapus air mata Tara dengan ibu jari.
Mendengar ucapan itu, air matanya bukannya berhenti, malah mengalir semakin deras.
“Aku minta maaf karena membuatmu cemas,” kata Tatsuya sungguh-sungguh. “Tapi keadaanku baik-baik saja. Sungguh. Dokter juga bilang tanganku hanya perlu dibebat selama tinggal minggu. Aku baik-baik saja.”
Laki-laki itu salah mengerti, tapi Tara tidak berusaha menjelaskan. Biarlah Tatsuya mengira ia menangis karena alasan itu, karena bagaimanapun juga ia tidak bisa menjelaskan alasan sebenarnya.
Sebelum Tara sempat menyadarinya, Tatsuya telah melingkarkan sebelah lengan di pundaknya. Tatsuya memeluknya sebelum ia bisa menolak. Tetapi ia tahu ia tidak mungkin bisa menolak.
“Jangan menangis lagi,” bisik Tatsuya sambil tetap mendekapnya. “Aku minta maaf.”
Tara menangis di bahu Tatsuya. Air matanya tidak mau berhenti. Mengalir terus tanpa bisa ditahan. Ia berharap air mata itu bisa meredakan rasa sakit di dadanya, tetapi tidak bisa. Semakin ia menangis, semakin sakit dadanya.
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Tatsuya baru menyadari ia sangat merindukan Tara. Ia baru menyadarinya ketika akhirnya menemukan gadis itu berdiri di puncak Arc de Triomphe. Melihat punggung gadis itu saja bisa membuat jantungnya berdebar kencang. Saat itu juga ia menyadari sia-sia saja ia berusaha menghindari Tara selama ini. Ia bisa saja menghindari gadis itu, tapi ia tidak bisa menghindari perasaannya. Segalanya bertambah rumit. Meskipun begitu, Tatsuya tidak ingin memikirkannya sekarang.
Tara sudah berhenti menangis dan terlihat lebih tenang. Walaupun Tatsuya tidak mengerti kenapa gadis itu menangis seperti tadi, ia tidak berusaha bertanya. Ia yakin Tara akan memberitahunya kalau memang mau. Ia tidak akan memaksa. Yang bisa dilakukannya hanya mencoba menghibur gadis itu, karena jelas sekali Tara membutuhkannya.
Tatsuya menarik napas dan berkata, “Kau benar.”
Tara menoleh ke arahnya dengan pandangan bertanya.
Ia melirik gadis itu dan tersenyum. “Pemandangan dari sini sangat menakjubkan.”
Tara membalas senyumnya. “Ini salah satu tempat kesukaanku di seluruh dunia,” gumamnya, lalu wajahnya berubah murung. “Tempat persembunyianku.”
Mereka berdua terdiam. Menikmati pemandangan sore kota Paris, menikmati embusan angin musim gugur, menikmati kesunyian.
Tiba-tiba Tatsuya bertanya, “Mau menemaniku jalan-jalan?”
Tara menoleh.
“Malam ini saja,” lanjut Tatsuya. Ia sudah membuat keputusan. “Kita lupakan semua masalah dan bersenang-senang sebentar. Kita pergi makan malam, lalu menonton film, teater, apa saja. Jalan-jalan di sepanjang Sungai Seine juga boleh. Apa saja yang kauinginkan. Bagaimana?”
Seulas senyum menghiasi bibir Tara. “Apa saja yang kuinginkan?”
Tatsuya mengangguk. “Apa saja.”
“Kau merasa sehat?” tanya Tara sambil memandangi tangan kiri Tatsuya yang dibebat. “Badanmu tidak sakit?”
“Aku baik-baik saja,” sahut Tatsuya cepat. “Luka kecil seperti ini bukan masalah sama sekali.”
Tatsuya sungguh ingin melupakan semua masalah yang mengganggu pikirannya selama ini. Juga rahasia itu. Ia ingin melupakan kenyataan sebentar. Hari ini saja. Ia tidak ingin mengingat kenyataan Tara adalah adiknya. Malam ini saja. Ia ingin mencurahkan perasaannya terhadap gadis itu tanpa rasa bersalah.
Mereka berpandangan, lalu Tara mengangguk. “Baiklah.”
Tatsuya mengulurkan tangan. Setelah ragu sesaat, Tara menyambut uluran tangannya. Ketika tangan gadis itu berada dalam genggamannya, Tatsuya merasa dirinya utuh kembali.
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نتایج (انگلیسی) 1:

"You can feel the debar my heart?" asked Tatsuya quietly. His eyes stared into the eyes of Tara.Palm of his hand stuck in his chest and his hands shaking in Tatsuya grips Tatsuya. He could feel the debar the male heart. Pounding tight under his Palm."Do you feel my heart pounding? Fast? "Sounds as if Tatsuya menghipnotisnya. Tara could not divert the gaze of the eyes of Tatsuya. He also could not answer."It's because of you."Tara holding their breath. He could feel the heart debar Tatsuya, but could not sense the debar heart himself.Tatsuya smile. "It's because I've ran engelilingi Paris for the sake of looking for you. You believe it now? "The man was so sweet. So good. Tara's heart is very sick because of the feelings that he felt towards Tatsuya. Tears started wetting his cheeks."Don't cry," Tatsuya gumam smabil remove the tears of Tara with the thumbs.Hear the speech that, instead of stopping her tears, even the more flowing copiously."I'm sorry because it makes you anxious," said Tatsuya seriously. "But the situation is fine. Seriously. The doctor also told me my hand just needs to be dibebat during the live Sunday. I'm fine. "The man was misunderstood, but Tara is not trying to explain. Let Tatsuya thought he was crying because of that reason, because somehow he could not explain the real reason.Before Tara got noticed, Tatsuya has loop next to the arm at the shoulder. Tatsuya hugged him before he could resist. But he knew he could not possibly refuse."Don't cry anymore," whispered Tatsuya while still mendekapnya. "I'm sorry."Tara wept on the shoulders of Tatsuya. His tears didn't want to stop. Flows can continue without being arrested. He hopes the tears that can relieve the pain in his chest, but could not. The more he cried, getting sick of her chest.* * *Tatsuya just realized he really missed the Tara. He noticed it when it finally finds the girl standing on the top of the Arc de Triomphe. Look at the back of the girl alone can make his heart thumping madly. Then he realized he wasted trying to avoid Tara. He could just avoid the girl, but he couldn't avoid his feelings. Everything grew complicated. Despite that, Tatsuya doesn't want to think about it now.Tara had stopped crying and looks more calm. Although Tatsuya does not understand why the girl is crying as she is not above trying to ask. He was sure Tara will tell him if it wanted to. He will not be forced. Could he do just try entertaining the girl, because it is obvious that Tara needs it.Tatsuya sigh and say, "you're right."Tara looked at her with a look asking.He glanced at her, and smiled. "The view from here is pretty amazing."Tara replied to her smile. "This is one of my favorites in the whole world," she mumbled, then his face turned glum. "Persembunyianku."They both fell silent. Enjoy the sights of Paris, enjoy afternoon gust of autumn wind, enjoying the silence.Tatsuya suddenly asked, "want to accompany me walk?"Tara looked."Tonight," continued Tatsuya. He has already made a decision. "We forget about all the problems and have fun for a bit. We went to dinner, then watch the movie, theater, anything. The streets along the Seine River may also be. Whatever wish. How about it? "Seulas a smile graced her lips Tara. "What do I want?"Tatsuya nodded. "Whatever.""You feel healthy?" Tara asked while staring at the left hand dibebat the Tatsuya. "Badanmu not sick?""I'm fine," said Tatsuya quickly. "Minor injuries such as this is not a problem at all."Tatsuya really want to forget about all the problems that plague his mind during this time. Also the secret of it. He wants to forget about reality for a bit. Today only. He did not want to remember the fact that Tara was his younger brother. Tonight only. He wants to pour out his feelings towards the girl without the guilt.They argued, then Tara nodded. "All right."Tatsuya lend a hand. After hesitating for a moment, Tara greets a helping hand. When the girl's hands are in his grasp, Tatsuya feels her whole back.* * *

نتایج (انگلیسی) 2:

"You could feel my heart beating?" Asked Tatsuya quietly. His eyes stared into the eyes of Tara.
The palm of his hand against his chest and his hands trembling Tatsuya Tatsuya in the clutch. He could feel the heartbeat men. Thumping under her palm.
"Do you feel my heart pounding? Fast? "
Sounds Tatsuya as if hypnotized. Tara could not take her eyes from the eyes Tatsuya. He also could not answer.
"It's because of you."
Tara held her breath. He could feel the heartbeat Tatsuya, but could not feel her heartbeat itself.
Tatsuya smiled. "It's because I've been running engelilingi Paris for the sake of looking. Do you believe now? "
He was so sweet. So good. Tara's heart hurts because of the feelings felt towards Tatsuya. Tears started rolling down her cheeks.
"Do not cry," murmured Tatsuya smabil wiped tears Tara with his thumb.
Listening to it, tears instead of stopping, even flow more swift.
"I'm sorry for making you worry," said Tatsuya earnest , "But my situation is fine. Really. The doctor also told me my only need bandaged for a week stay. I'm fine. "
He was wrong, but Tara does not attempt to explain. Let Tatsuya thought she was crying because of that reason, however, because he could not explain the real reason.
Before Tara know it, Tatsuya had put his arm on her shoulder. Tatsuya hugged him before he could refuse. But he knew he could not refuse.
"Do not cry anymore," whispered Tatsuya while still embrace. "I'm sorry."
Tara cried on the shoulder of Tatsuya. The tears would not stop. Continues to flow uncontrollably. He hoped that the tear could ease the pain in his chest, but could not. The more she cried, the pain of his chest.
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Tatsuya realized she missed Tara. He only realized when she finally found the girl standing on top of the Arc de Triomphe. Seeing her back could make heart pounding. At that moment he realized vain he tried to avoid Tara during this time. He could have avoided her, but she could not avoid her feelings. Everything became more complicated. Even so, Tatsuya did not want to think about it now.
Tara had stopped crying and seemed calmer. Although Tatsuya did not understand why she was crying like that, he did not try to ask. He sure Tara will tell him if it wanted to. He will not force. What he could do just tried to comfort her, because obviously Tara needed it.
Tatsuya sighed and said, "You're right."
Tara turned to her with a view to ask.
He glanced at her and smiled. "The view from here is simply amazing."
Tara smiled back. "It's one of my favorite places in the whole world," he murmured, and his face turned gloomy. "Hiding place."
They were both silent. Enjoying the evening view of the city of Paris, enjoying the breeze of autumn, enjoy the silence.
Suddenly Tatsuya asked, "Would you like to accompany me walk?"
Tara turned around.
"Tonight only," said Tatsuya. He has made ​​his decision. "Let's forget about all the problems and have fun for a while. We go to dinner, and watch a movie, theater, whatever. The streets along the Seine River is also allowed. Anything you want. How? "
A smile graced his lips Tara. "What do I want?"
Tatsuya nodded. "Anything."
"Are you feeling well?" Asked Tara, looking at Tatsuya bandaged left hand. "Your body does not hurt?"
"I'm fine," said Tatsuya quickly. "A small cut like this is not a problem at all."
Tatsuya really want to forget all the problems that bothered her during this time. Also secret. He wanted to forget reality for a while. Today only. He did not want to remember the fact Tara was his sister. Tonight only. He wants to pour out his feelings for her without guilt.
They stared, then Tara nodded. "Okay."
Tatsuya hand. After a moment's hesitation, Tara welcomes a helping hand. When the girl's hand was in his hands, Tatsuya felt whole again.
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